This happened July 13, 2008
MAN OF MY DREAMS
I was married at 28
to the man of my dreams,
He was wonderful,
and loving and was caring to me.
It was subtle at first,
Just little things changed,
Then before I new it
He was controlling and enraged.
I couldn’t do anything right
It was always my fault.
He had me believing
I was wrong about it all.
Then came that night
I will never forget
July 13th , I was shot in the back.
I could tell right away
The bullet to the back,
Paralyzed my legs and
I knew it was bad.
I couldn’t get away
And started to pray.
I told the Lord I was ready
And it was OK.
The abuse was soon to be over
And I could move on,
A light at the end of the
Tunnel was coming on strong.
I laid in the grass crying but safe
As I felt the Lords hand upon my face.
The man with a gun no longer had control I gave it to the lord and was ready to go.
I made it through it
And now he’s in jail
My kids are safe and
No longer in hell.
We are starting over with family and friends But the night that we lived Still haunts us now and then.
They say I will walk with a cane and
A limp that won’t end
And a brace on my leg
To remind me of him.
I cry when I think
How the night could have gone
But the Lord was watching
And helped me along.
I fight everyday to get up and walk
Even though they said
Stop it and give it up.
Why did it happen?
What did I do
To deserve this abuse
And hatred from you.
I only wanted your love
And your love alone
And all that I got
Was abuse and control.
Everybody was surprised
And couldn’t believe
That this had happened
To someone like me.
I am a strong woman, who is successful and fun Who is thoughtful and caring to everyone.
Nobody knows the pain I endured
From a man I was married to for 15 years.
What I have learned is that
It is not my fault
And that there are 3 women a day
That die from this kind of assault.
I want to help
And help I will do
To stop this from happening to somebody new.
If you are worried or
You are afraid
Get out of this
Before its to late.
There is help out there
And people who care.
Don’t make the mistake
And stay out of fear.
In closing I want to tell you
About the man of my dreams.
He was scary, drunk and abusive to me.
He was sick and controlling
And ruined my life.
Please Save yours now
And start a new life.