To make him go away…he haunts my mind, every second of everyday! What I would do to be able to rewind time, to stop all of this from ever happening!
I will start by telling you right off the bat, that yes this is difficult, yes this hurts, and yes it will take time. Let me tell you this you shall overcome this obstacle and things will get better!
I am 17 years old and on Thanksgiving I was raped. I received a phone call from a good buddy of mine around 4 or 5 that night asking if I would come with her to hang with her and make sure everything was ok and nothing happens. I went with…this was where I went wrong.
I was drinking that night, so my mind was not there, I was approached by a man I had never seen before, he was just talking to me, he offered me a few drinks so I stupidly took them and was hoping to just relax and calm down from the day. A couple hours have passed and I found myself alone with him, he hands me a glass so I drank it…and within a few minutes i was becoming dizzy, feeling sick. This man who I have known for two hours took me upstairs and raped me. Three different times. See I am a lesbian. I told him this and he refused to listen or even acknowledge my voice. I begged and pleaded him to stop. Sadly I was silenced by him. He is 34 years old…I am 17…..
I will never forget that night…and yes it will take me quite some time to heal…but if I have learned anything from this experience…it is that the one thing that keeps me alive is knowing that the next day, it might all change for the better, and those of us who were silenced and labeled a "nobody" will overcome this and become a somebody!!!
One last thing I want to thank you for reading this and I want you to know in am here for each and everyone of you. I hope that whoever you are, you escape that place of hurt and things get better. But I hope most of all that you understand what I mean when I tell you that even though I do not know you, though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, I love you, I love you! I love you with all of my heart! Take care!