Shatter The Silence™

I’m a survivor fighting to get my life back from the emotional trauma that I have been experiencing as a result of incest that occurred for three years when I was 12. I’ve struggled a lot with the events. I trusted her; she was my sister, she was supposed to protect me. Instead she molested me. Thankfully the incestuous abuse ended when I was 15. But I struggle now with physical and emotional abuse. I have experienced a lot of problems, OCD, PTSD, guilt, trust issues, as a result of her words and actions. But I continue to fight for me life. I hid the abuse for so long, it wasn’t until a few months ago that I decided to break the silence; I decide to take the path to recovery. I still struggle A LOT and while taking about what happened is hard it is probably the best thing I have ever done for myself.

I was raped in 2007. I told my mom but she didn’t believe me. I tried to tell my dad but the phone wouldnt work right (I was in a different country than him at the time) My middle school found out last year and I have been through all kinds of counseling. My parents continue to put everything under the rug and I think that hurts even more. If they don’t admit anything is wrong it feels like its all in my head. I wonder if maybe I am just insane.

It doesn’t have to be a violent act for it to be considered rape. It happened to me by someone that was my “best friend”. There was nothing violent about it, but the word no was said and sadly, not acknowledged. I’ve pushed it aside for 4 years and now it is starting to come back in horrible ways. I urge anyone to speak if it has happened to them, it really will help once you can admit it not only to others, but to yourself too. Do not push it away like I tried to, accept what happened, work through it and help others with your experience.

I was raped by three people. My roommate, her boyfriend, and a friend of hers who I did not know she knew, who I had been sleeping with for a short time.

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I am a survivor of incest. There is still incest going on in my family.  It is my family’s idea of fun. My mother is in major, and I mean major, denial and does not think anything is wrong.