We Shatter Silence Story from Norwalk, OH
I was staying at my friends house like I had many times before. She fell asleep on the floor, while I fell asleep on the couch. Her father was sitting at the end of the couch I was sleeping on. I woke up with him touching me on the chest. I didn’t know what to do. I was so scared. I was thinking to myself, if I yell he may turn violent, so I sat there and prayed to God that this would end. I was screaming so loud inside but no one could hear me. He reached his hand lower onto my body. He got to the lining of my pants and I pretended to shift in my sleep. It worked. He moved his hand back up to my chest but now his body was moving. I had no idea what he was doing. He was grabbing me harder on the chest now, and then I realized he had been masturbating. Tears were pouring from my eyes. I tried not to let him see and to still pretend to be asleep. He left the house when someone called shortly after. I broke down when he left. I didn’t tell anyone though, not until recently. I don’t dare tell my friend though. I’m too scared she will hate me. I still don’t understand why this happened to me, or what I did wrong. I don’t want to feel what I am feeling now. That night something inside me changed; it is like an innocent part of me died. Any child like feelings I had left me that night. And reality struck me.
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I am so sorry that this monster snatched you out of your innocence and threw you into this world of childhood trauma from sexual abuse. This will always be a part of you now but you will cope around this. Always remember that you did NOTHING to cause this…and you are not alone. You are very brave for sharing your story. I hope that you’ve found the strength to tell a trusted adult because you will need support through this. I know that you’re afraid that your friend may get angry at you, but if you keep this hidden inside of you, it will start to rot and create severe mental instabilities for you. You’ve already suffered enough, tell someone you trust, find a support system that you can talk to, and try to be a kid again while you still can. Best wishes and positive energy 💙